My parents refused to care for my younger kids while I tended to my oldest with leukemia; I called my ex-husband, but he said: “You’re just a poor writer, deal with it”

home who did not know their sister was gone.

The days after your child dies don’t move like normal days.

They pull.

I remember pieces.

Telling Theo.

The change in his face.

Wyatt not understanding and then suddenly understanding three hours later in the bathtub.

I remember the casserole dish still sitting near the door.

And I remember the funeral because that was when my family finally appeared.

They came in dark clothes with louder grief than I had heard from them in years.

My mother cried harder than anyone