My parents refused to care for my younger kids while I tended to my oldest with leukemia; I called my ex-husband, but he said: “You’re just a poor writer, deal with it”

00 in the morning for a reason,” she said. “Even when you were too tired to see straight, you wrote. So write it down. Even the parts you can’t say out loud, especially those.”

I took it.

I didn’t promise anything.

I was incapable of promises that week.

But I stood on my front step holding that cheap notebook in both hands.

A year later, a very different group of people would stand on that same step.

And something inside my chest loosened by one small notch.

I didn’t write